I am and will always remain an aspiring writer. I’m too scared to write what I really want to write, and so I write generic stuff. Writing topically will never get me there, yes I know. I wonder what it would be like to strip myself bare and write all that’s to be written… what would then remain of me…? What scares me… my words or how my words may be (mis)judged?
At times, I have dared to bare my soul but I always stop myself halfway or rather within a quarter. Then I start polishing the language until it becomes generic and so it will always be… :sigh: Some day, I shall be strong. One day, I shall write like I don’t care. That day I shall become a writer in true sense….
Until then…
Let me talk about my movie marathon with a film-fanatic-friend [FFF]. This FFF and I are now estranged… we’ve lost touch… we’ve cut ties or rather I think I did the honour of cutting ties with him. Well, last time we saw each other we reminisced our movie marathon era… it was either his place, his films and my chips or the other way round… “films” was the only bond between us and so our filmy bond was flimsy and flitting…
All that now remains is the memory of the bygone movie marathon memory!!!
s1ngal 
It’s hard to write stories if you don’t feel people will enjoy them. Most of my stories have a niche readership, so I know what it feels like to be scared of writing.
Thank you for your kind words!
In my opinion, there is no such thing as an aspiring writer. You are simply a writer. Write your story. If no one likes it, it is their loss. Also in my opinion, a good story is in the way it is told. In 2015 I wrote a very personal book, and it was shot down by a literary agent, but then I met a very awesome author that taught me, one word at a time, one 300 word submission at a time, then one novel at a time. I wrote 15 articles to local papers about what I felt. If they liked them they printed them. I only had two not get printed. Some are very personal. If you would like to. Please visit my site and check them out, perhaps you may find inspiration from a fellow beginner. I enjoyed reading you post. You are more on your way than you realize.
I enjoyed this, lol…I understand how you feel, but only when it comes to writing about my family. Everything else is fair game and I can’t wait to get it off my chest! I’ve found blogging cathartic, unexpectedly! When it comes to work, however, I do have to sugar-coat the B.S. until I leave, lol…