How single can I be? How single have I become? I have just begun wondering… And this is why!
A very VERY good friend told me she’s getting her wedding invitation cards designed “…the wedding card’s being designed the funky cute way…” She was all excited – over the phone. I was absolutely cold. My response, hence – “Count me out. Consider it an early RSVP.”
Imagine – a very VERY good sharing the excitement of her lifetime and how insanely sinister was my response.
V V good friend: But why?
s1ngal: Long story.
V V good friend: a short one, I’m sure you can do it…
s1ngal: Your relationship died *for me* a long time back. I can’t pretend to enjoy a funeral.
V V good friend: You can attend a funeral though, even if it’s to shed some tears for me… my relationship has revived….
s1ngal: kept the phone away for a while with a little *ahas* and *okays” in between.
Knowing my friend the invitation may look something like this. IMAGE SOURCE
Okay a little background to my friend’s relationship. Yes, she’s been going out with this guy for ages like EIGHT years. When she breaks up with the guy, he comes running to her – wailing and whining to be taken back. Then, one fine day, as if answering to my un-prayed prayers – HE broke up with her. I knew it was the end of it all. I almost rejoiced until I saw her crying. HUH! They’d drifted apart like…. like… ummm like… okay imagine the worst *drifting apart* scenario. That’s when she went running to HIM – wailing and whining. “Ewwwww” my exact emotion when she ran into his crossed arms [or whatever’s the opposite of “arms wide open”].
they’ve BEEN there and DONE all that. IMAGE SOURCE
Okay a little more background to my friend’s relationship. She’s been going out with this guy for ages like AGES which in time gave us all enough time to become friends. So the guy is apparently a friend too. In the past, they’ve been engaged 3 times and if I’m not wrong, the guy’s already given up on going down on his knees. So this time around, without all the nonsensical formalities [applicable only to these friends, mind you :)] of engaging, which they always tend to call off, they have decided to get hitched – in February.
I DON’T THINK I CAN!
Yes, I’m single but I’m a foolishly hopelessly romantic at heart. When this news of her getting married didn’t do anything to my heartbeat [like I had suddenly turned to stone], I was shocked. Have I become so single that I can’t even enjoy a very VERY good friend’s happy ending [of spinsterhood]? OR is it because it’s SHE and HE getting married that didn’t stir up any emotions in my heart? I’m hoping it’s the latter.
I want to be single but I’d always want to be a foolishly hopelessly romantic at heart. Is it possible?
s1ngal 
I wear black to weddings and bright colors to funerals. That’s my take on the whole single/not single thing. But I’m still a hopeless romantic at heart. 😉
😀 This comment has made me feel very comfortable – I was almost on a guilt trip
No guilt trip….total comfort!
More then likely it’s because you know it probably won’t work, the marriage.
Hmmm, never gave that one thought. Thank you 🙂
The latter. you’re not believeing it, because it’s them. I am familiar with that. Still, I think you should go, not to be witness to something beautiful, but to be a loyal friend
Yeah, you’re right. Both of them have seen me through a lot of things so I guess you’re right. BUT… 😉
Tough question you pose to us… If she truly is your friend, you should consider sharing the day with her. But after swaying to and fro for so many years, it appears to me that its an all or nothing thing…
Much appreciated. Thank you Koji, you’re always so insightful. Never been gladder blogging 😀